Panicking on Camera

So… you’ve probably seen me panicking recently.

I did too, right there on camera.

A few weeks ago, we released an episode of Funded Freedom where I stepped completely out of my comfort zone. I wasn’t just talking shop, oh no, I was on the hot seat, under the pressure of live trading while cameras rolled. It was uncomfortable. If you've watched it, you might’ve seen the sweat beads, the "where’s the exit" mindset, the internal voice saying, “Why am I doing this again?” That was me, front and center.

Trading behind closed doors is one thing. You know the charts, the tools, your strategy, it's familiar. Doing it under a spotlight is a different animal. There’s a vulnerability there that hits hard. Making those split-second decisions knowing others are watching how you handle the pressure, how you respond to losses or unexpected moves, that felt naked.

That raw exposure was exactly why I did it. Because real growth doesn't come from polished success stories, it comes from showing the messy middle.

In the episode, what you see isn’t just technical analysis and clean exits. There are shaky hands, self-doubt, second-guessing. There are moments where clarity fades and only instinct takes over. That’s what real trading looks like. Not the awe-inspiring charts or the strategic cold calls. It’s the internal battle, the fear, and then pushing through.

By sharing it, I wanted to show something we all go through but rarely admit: that stepping into new terrain (publicly, emotionally, professionally) often feels deeply uncomfortable.

It’s one thing to talk about resilience or mindset in abstract terms. It’s another to visibly grapple with it in real time. By putting those moments on display, I hope to remind others (traders or not) that discomfort isn’t a flaw. It’s a signal that growth is happening.

Having it on camera wasn’t completely for clicks. It was about putting the real behind the polished narrative: that even people who look confident can be internally flailing and still move forward anyway.

The link to the episode is right here, no frills, no illusions:

This is my unvarnished moment. I’m putting the “uncomfortable” out there because that’s exactly where growth happens.

Thanks for reading through the messy brilliance of it all.